This one is a lot

This was hard to write, it'll be hard to read.

Trigger warning: suicide.

*deep breath*

This is gonna be a tough one.

On September 19th last year, I was very close to ending my life.

The relationship I was in was at its rockiest. We were due to get married in four weeks. He’d started a fight with me a few weeks prior and every day that spat seemed to sprout new wings. Every day, he found a new thing …